A few things first, I am getting excited about collecting all the makeup in the world again! However, I know that I have to exercise some restraint, so lately I’ve just been surfing the net for deals. By the time I’m done (2 hours each time interspaced with watching CSI), I’m too sick of looking at makeup to want to buy it. I think it’s a good plan.
I’ve also been trying to make myself leave the house. Seriously, I think my neighbours think that this house is uninhabited. All I do is crawl from the bed to the desk or not even leaving the bed (I just prop my lappy on a breakfast tray), with occassional visits to the toilet and kitchen. I live in my pjs. My diet consists of milk and more milk, with oatflake cereal, instant noodles and tons of eggs. By the way, it is not a good idea to eat too many hardboiled eggs in a confined space.
It’s the Easter weekend. I keep wondering where all my friends have gone… almost wishing that the Personal Chef is here so we could plan a roadtrip or something. I AM going out tonight for drinks with a friend.. but not very enthusiastically. Seems like I’ve lost interest in everything. The only thing I’m looking forward to is the Personal Chef coming back with my Wii. A and Crappy Girl have been happily playing The Blob on my Wii and I feel so wistful when I hear their shrieks of laughter over Skype. Sigh…
Once every six months, Uni sends an email warning us of international students being assualted/ robbed etc on and around campus. Every six months I get paranoid about being out late and by myself.
I need more money. Everyone needs more money…
I hate my friends here..or whatever remains of them. I don’t know why? Because they have partners and I envy that? It doesn’t help that they keep shoving it in my face. Oh dear… I’m turning into one of those whiny bitter old women. LOL. Seems like the winter blues are arriving earlier than usual this year.
Ever have one of those friends that you like hanging out with, only if they don’t open their mouths? There’s this person whom I’m slowly dreading having a conversation with. Even when it’s online, and I see her online, I pray that she doesn’t message me. Somehow everything seems to be a competition for her, and she just has to shove it in my face that she has this (and I don’t), she’s doing better, has a bigger item of something etc etc etc. Drives me crazy. Especially when she continuously argues with me over silly minor things (like the weather!), just to prove that she’s right. Such people just make me want to not be polite with them. In fact, I have been very rude and condescending to her, and I know that’s just so uncool. But she just brings out the worst in me. I miss A and Crappy Girl and other friends… I miss matter-of-fact people who don’t think that their position is better than mine, or even if it is, it isn’t a big fucking deal.
It’s not that I’ve been less willing to socialise… when I think about it, it seems that all the nice friends I’d made over the past two years have gone back to their countries or another state. My Monday night after class drinks are cancelled forever because two of my drinking kakis have left for home countries. Another friend went off as well after years of living here. Most people I know live really far away and hence we don’t meet up often.
AIYOH!! Ok, can’t stand myself whinging anymore.
Gonna go grocery shopping… hopefully the supermarket is open on Easter Sunday.
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